Happy Birthday!!!

I have missed my blog pretty badly for quite some time now. I wanted to post on so many issues, but couldn't do it. I was out of station for about 15 days. This post is really very special to me. I have successfully completed 1 year in the blogosphere. Happy Birthday to my blog... Cheers!!!

Blogger has provided me with an ideal platform to talk about those ideas, thoughts and feelings, which weren't courageous enough to face this world. I have been able to communicate with people, with much more transparency than I could have ever done in person. Blogging has been one of the best things that has happened to me. I have rediscovered myself. I can jot about anything and everything under this sun on my blog!! I want to voice all those stupidest ideas that keep bubbling in my mind (truly short-lived in nature, like the bubbles of water) with full audacity. I don't care, if I am gonna be labeled 'stupid'. All those weird posts on this blog must be credited to my crazy dimag!! I owe a lot all those ‘wicked ideas’ that run through my mind on a regular basis. I wonder at what angle are they incident, coz they always manage to undergo Total Internal Reflection (TIR) and escape out of my mind. It’s hard to verbalize all of them as they are extremely volatile in nature.

Before I conclude, I would like to share a fact with all my blogger friends. I am using a dialup connection to blog. This is the last thing that any blog fanatic would crave for. I have been victimized by this earth-wormish paced internet access from my home. Believe me; you can literally lunch, by the time a webpage opens in my home. I’m planning to switch over to a broad band connection. Please bear with me, if I happen to take more time to respond to any of the comments on my blog.

PS: I really have tons to share with you people. I will post them shortly. Oh almighty, give me the strength to think more crazily and unconventionally, so that I can blog more about them... Height of blogging addiction and selfishness, I guess... Lol...

~IT's My Life

4 year series khatam!!!

I was eagerly waiting for the 'official verdict', before I could jollify (Nothing nasty though!!). The :D moment finally arrived, and it's official now. The 8th semester results were officially out today, and I managed to pull off a decent score. I have successfully survived through all the hardships for 4 years. Phew!! It feels really great at this point of time. Mere paas is khushi ko bayaan karne ke liye shabdh nahi mil rahe he. Technically speaking, I can call myself an ENGINEER now. It is surely going to take some time, for me to successfully digest this whole new feeling.

PS: The time has finally arrived... I need to update the 'About Me' section of my blog. I Will certainly find something appropriate and fill it. I really have got no clue as to what’s it going to be? As of now, I'm on cloud no 9!!!

~IT's My Life

Reviews of Sivaji - The (Real) Boss!!!

It has been one of a rarest of the rare occasions in the history of Indian (and now global) cinema that a movie had been hyped so much, and it hasn't failed to deliver and meet the expectations of its fans!!! Yes! I am talking of the movie Sivaji - The Boss. Super star RajniKant makes a dhamakedhar return after 2 years of ‘exile’. Boy!!! Kya return service marahe sir aapne? Har ek ki lab pe ek hi naam hai, Sivaji – The Boss. You have ensured that none of your fans are left disappointed. Every movie these days is released with the so called ‘It’s Different’ tag, while only a few are different. I feel the media wasn’t too hyperbolic either, about the movie’s reviews. They were pretty fair in saying that any RajniKant fan would have a blast of a time, as the real super star gives every other ‘Badshah’, ‘King’ and ‘Ace’, a run for their money!!!

I have always been fascinated by the style and coolness index associated with this crowd puller. His biggest asset is undoubtedly his style and mannerism. None of the other so-called STARS can even think of matching his caliber. No duteous follower of RajniKant would feel any stunt performed by him to be ‘Illogical’ / ‘unrealistic’/ ‘Larger than life’ or whatever. Even at this age, RajniKant has such a charismatic screen presence that even the so-called ‘youth icons’ stale in front of him. Such is the jaado of RajniKant. Isiko RajniKant Mania kehte beta!!!

Coming to the story line of the movie, one would expect a Rajni film to have all those ingredients which makes his film a 'dish' to relish. Sivaji too has all that one would expect from him. The story basically is about an NRI (Sivaji, a Software Systems Architect from USA) who returns back to Chennai with a dream to invest his earnings (Rs 200 crore project) in building colleges, hospital etc, in order to serve common people. But it doesn’t take him a long time, before he is faced with the ‘Nanga Succh’ about the so called 'bureaucratic hurdles' in actualizing his dreams. He is troubled by those gazillion ‘formalities’, that one has to fulfill before opening a college/ hospital etc. Adiseshan (Suman) is a politically influential businessman who plots his downfall and Sivaji ends up losing all his money. The movie clearly reflects the status quo of the ‘Goondha-giri’ politics that has rooted in our country. He decides to take on the whole system and teach all those ‘Dirt balls’, a lesson of a life time.

If you happen to conclude by the above description that this is some serious movie, with no tickling flavor of Tamil comedy, you will certainly be proved wrong. The south Indian superstar of comedy (Don't you dare to question his caliber...) Vivek, leaves you guffawing all throughout the movie. Vivek plays the role of sivaji’s ‘mama’. It’s his priceless piece of comedy that fuels the movie to shine brighter.

When the duo comes on screen, the viewers are surely in for a laughter treat. They make a perfect combo. Kudos Vivek!!! You are one of those key factors who have made a significant contribution, in ensuring that the movie doesn’t sound very preachy in nature. Boss ka definition kya hai? Bachelor of Social Service!! (This is a sample of how Vivek delivers some priceless and refreshing comedy. That’s Vivek for you. He shows how one doesn’t need to resort to some third rate PJs to entertain the viewers) Thanks a ton!!!

The music of the movie is simply awesome. A R Rehman has done complete justice to this whole movie with some real good numbers. The director of the movie, Shankar has ensured that the movie doesn’t sound like yet another Anniyan/Indian, which had similar shades of a man rising against the system. Thanks a ton sir!!! Shriya sharan as Tamizharasi too has done her part of the job some real good justice. She has already grabbed some good offers from big banners. She is all set to enter bollywood cinema via this movie. Other actors in the movie like Raghuvaran as Dr. Chezhian, Manivannan as Sivaji's father, have all done justice to their roles.

PS: Sivaji is certainly much much more than just a 'preachy' movie!!! So all you ardent Rajni fans out there go get your share of visual treat!!!

~IT's My Life

Dumb and Dumber!!!

Have you ever wondered why people ask you some questions, when they know the answers to those questions themselves? I am sure every one of you would have faced these kinds of abashing situations. When you hear such questions, apka dil to karta tha hai ki samne wale ko zor sa ek thappad marke wahan se kalti marlo!!! Par kya kare dosto, yeh sharifo ka (na ki sheriffo ka) duniya hai. Sabh logo ko ‘accha aadmi/aurat’ kehelwane ka shauk jo padi hai!!! Kitna bhi gussa aaye, use 'niyantrit' karna padta hai. Sabse mushkil cheez yeh hoti hai ki, woh besharam aadmi/aurat jo aise stupid sawal poochta hai, woh hamare jaan pehchaan wale hi hote hain. Ek dharam sankat ki istithi paida ho jati hai. You gotta bear with it folks!!!

Par saala abh nahin bardaash hota yaar. Besharmi ki bhi koi had hoti hai. So all you uncle/aunties/dost-log, and all those uninvited baalus (and bhageeras) ... I write post this to express my deepest feelings of anguish and intolerance. May the almighty bestow you with the power to discern the line of demarcation between sanity and insanity!!! Don’t even think of asking me questions which are even remotely close to the following ones.

Scene 1: You are well dressed in your school uniform and rushing towards the school bus, near the bus stop in your colony (arey thoda life ki tape to rewind kar ke imagine karlo yaar). Suddenly an uncle, you are asked to show respect passes by, and asks, "Beta school jare ho?"

What you utter: “Ha uncle, aaj bahut late hogayi…” Uske baad aap phata phat bus main chad jate ho...

What your gut says: "Nahi uncle, film dekhne ja raha hoon. Mere paas do aur ticket hain. Agar aap chahate hain to main aap ko who de sakhta hoon!!! Kya hain ki, school main film par ek report ka assignment diya hain!!!"

Scene 2: You are freaking out with your friends at a theatre, to check out the recent flick. Suddenly you meet your ‘nursery alma-mater’, who asks you the most un-obvious question. "Arey thu bhi... Theatre main kya kar raha hai yaar?"

What you utter: "Yaar tumhe dekh ke bahut kushi hui yaar. Mere dost sabhi movie dekhne aaye to mai bhi unke saath company dene agaya."

What your gut says: "Aaj kal black ticket ka side business shuru kiyela apun ne. Pocket money ki bahut kami hai yaar. Kaho to tujhe bhi yeh naukri dila sakta hu. Apna resume mujhe forward karde F****R!!! Dus ka thees dus ka thees..."

Scene 3: You just finish your lunch/dinner at marriage ceremony of your friend. You sit beside your friend chatting about some chick who threw 'ek-khatilana-muskaan' at you. Tabhi ek aunty aapse pooch thi hain, "Beta kya tumne khana khaya?"

What you utter: "Ha aunty... Thanks for such a delicious treat!!!"

What your gut says: "Nahi aunty… aapko kya lagta hain? Main yahan plate saaf karne ke liye baitan hoon kya?" You flash your hand(s), to prove your point!!! You feel like smearing all the left over food from your friend's plate on to her face. Saala apun kho bhikari samajh thi hain... "Main doosri baar khana nahi mangoonga aunty, chinta math karo!!!"

Scene 4: It’s raining torrentially outside and you rush in to the house fully drenched with rain water, just like john Abraham in the song ‘Phaigaam laya sawan’ in ‘Lakheer’. You are searching for some warm clothes to change. Apke ghar waale apse pooch te hain, “Kya beta tum baarish main bheeg ke aarahe ho?” (Just like bollywood film main biwi questions her husband, “Aaj sharab peeke aaye ho kya?”)

What you utter: Bahar bahut baarish thi aur mere paas koi chatri bhi nahi thi. Isliye bheegna pada!!!

What your gut says: “Kya baat karte hain? Apne colony ke paas jo jheel hain, usme swimming karke bahut din hogaya the. Socha ek bar dive marke aau. Pata hain, maine swimming abhi boola nahi hoon. Dehke te raho main bhi ek din Ian Thorpe ki tarah Olympics main gold medal jeet ke laaonga!!!”

Scene 5: You are busy shopping at a shopping complex, when a friend of yours comes over to you and asks the most obvious question, "Kya yaar… Shopping ke liye ayete kya?"

What you utter: "Ha yaar.. kuch shopping-whopping karne nikla tha..." (With a smirk)

What your gut says: "Nahi yaar... Kya mazak karta hai kya. Raat to ko is shopping maal main dhaka dalne ka plan hai. Isliye ek baar security loop holes dekhne aya tha. Kisiko bolna math ha.. Saala main tereko shakal se badmash lakta hu kya?"

Scene 6: You are tired to the core after an exhaustive morning jog (in a track suit) and you are almost drenched with sweat (mehnat ki nishani).Tabhi ek uncle you know who passes by asks you, "Kya beta jogging karne ayata kya?"

What you utter: "Ha uncle, doctor ne bola hain ki jogging sehat ke liye acchi hain... to isliye maine bhi jogging chalu kiya.."

What your gut says: "Saale tumhe kya lagta hain? Subha subha maine koi ladki ko cheda, aura police mere peeche padi hain? Main kya pagal hu jo is tarah daud rahan hu?"

This is gotta be the dumbest question I have ever heard people ask.

Scene 7: Usually a dead body is taken in procession to the cremation place. Some follow the tradition of burning crackers in front of the procession. It’s all a part of their custom and ritual. Then someone on the way asks one of the followers in the procession, "Kya koi margaya hain kya?"

What you utter: "Kya kahe. Bahut accha aadmi tha. Humne socha nahi tha ki woh itna jaldi hum subko chod ke chala jayega..."

What your gut says: "Haram khor... Andhe ho kya? Dhikayi nahi deta kya? Tumhe kya lagta hain, yahan par koi film ki shooting chaalu hai?"

PS: I wouldn't blame anyone for asking such dumb questions. I'm sure you would have been at both ends on numerous occasions. It’s just that people try to be nice with you when you ask such questions and don't slash back!!! Par age se jabbi aap logo main se koi bhi aisi situation main ho, to please aise stupid questions math poocho? If you got some more questions like these, feel free to share with all of us. I would love to hear from you people.

~IT's My Life

What Kinda friend are u?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

~IT's My Life

Golden rules for finding your life partner...

Abh yeh math samajh lena ki main koi matrimonial consulting ki dukhan kolne wala hu. Jo log shaadi ke bandhan main bandhne ja rahe hain, or jo uske bare main abhi sirf vichaar kar rahe hain, unke ke liye eh post dedicated hain!!! Agar wedding ring ke saath "Suffe(r)-ring" bhi (muft main) pana nahi chahate ho to in points par thoda sa dhyan do...

A wedding ring!!!

A relationship coach lays out his 5 golden rules for reviewing the prospects of long-term marital success. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50 percent (in USA), it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Ms. Right!

If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love." I believe this is the #1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound not politically correct, there's a profound truth here. Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come.Let me say it again You CANNOT build a lifetime relationship on love alone. You need a lot more. Here are 5 questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding & keeping a life partner.

QUESTION #1 Do we share a common life purpose?

Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat & jog together? You need to share something deeper & more meaningful. You need a common life purpose. Two things can happen in a marriage. You can grow together, or you can grow apart. 50 percent of the people out there are growing apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life - bottom line - & marry someone who wants the same thing.

QUESTION #2 Do I feel safe expressing my feelings & thoughts with this person?

This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust- i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts & feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts & feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.

QUESTION #3 Is he/she a mensch? A mensch is someone who is a refined & sensitive person.

How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good & do the right thing." So ask about your significant other What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement. There are essentially two types of people in the world: People who are dedicated to personal growth & people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION #4 How does he/she treat other people?

The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure. Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves & self-absorbed? To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc. How do they treat parents & siblings? Do they have gratitude & appreciation? If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything, you cannot expect that they'll have gratitude for you-who can't do nearly as much for them! Do they gossip & speak badly about others? Someone who gossips cannot be someone who loves others. You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.

QUESTION #5 Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?

Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it, "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage .. for the worse!" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them. In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult & treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head & less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating, to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.

Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework..

Courtesy: Received via an e-mail.

~IT's My Life

Orkut - Aisi azadi aur kaha?

One of the fundamental rights that every person would love to exercise is the freedom of expression. But every fundamental right carries with it a duty as well. When it comes to freedom of expression there are literally infinite modes of exercising it. The World Wide Web is undoubtedly one of the most widely used means of reaching maximum number of viewers and also in a shorter period of time. Everything in this world has got its own set of advantages and disadvantages. World Wide Web is probably one of the most widely abused means of communication media.

I would like to focus in particular on a social networking site called Orkut, which has been in news off late because of this. Every service u get on internet is bound to be misused and abused to the fullest in some way or the other and Orkut is no exception to it. Orkut gained widespread popularity amongst the youth of India very recently. Since then it’s literally been every person’s favorite hangout on the internet. It currently stands at 3rd position, in terms of usage.

I have (in fact had) been an ardent fan of orkut, since its one of the easiest means to keep in touch with a lot of my friends and relatives. I am also a member of several communities on orkut, which are basically created to share the common interests of people around the globe. The ease with which one can build acquaintances is the USP of orkut. One can easily create number of communities and share his/her views openly without fear/favor.

All this falls on the brighter side of orkut. Like any other website, orkut also has been misused quite profusely. No matter how Google claims to be vigilant to keep a check on offensive contents being published on their portal, they have never been successful. A few months back there was quite bit of a row on communities which had become open platforms to showcase their anger and rage on certain nations like India, Pakistan, etc. I had received N number of e-mails asking me to report these kinds of communities as bogus. Google claims to remove/block any such offensive/inappropriate/illegal contents from their site when notified by users.

But take a closer look at the communities on orkut; u will be astonished to see countless such communities were people express open hatred towards a country or its people and no one hardly bothers to report about the abuse. I was a bit curious about such hyperbolic claims made by Google about keeping their social networking site 'beautiful', so I searched a few communities with key words, and was literally dumbfounded to find a big list of such communities. Communities like a, b, etc are undoubtedly offensive.

One who has been using orkut for quite some time, would know how the pics of female users are prone to abuse by other orkut users. Every Tom, Dick and Harry can literally do anything with a snap of yours from ur photo album on orkut and misuse it. So off late many of my friends haven't posted their original snaps. Another feature that Orkut provides, is to add links to your favourite videos on the web. This could also be potentially used to post offensive contents on orkut.

What really irks me is not the fact that these sites allow such offensive contents to be posted on their site, but with that an amount of ease. You can easily walk away uncaught (on most occasions) doing such a mischief! We the users of such social networking sites should be aware of such flaws and educate people regarding them. We need to raise voices against such incidents, whenever we come across them. Do we need people like shiv Sainiks who abuse the law themselves, to educate us regarding the flaws in such websites?

PS: Orkut is just one of those zillions of websites that I have talked about, where the published content’s misuse is simply a child’s play. Think of all other so-called social networking sites, which have been multiplying just like mushrooms, where the vigilance levels (at least in few of the sites) are pathetic? Is this whole concept of social networking a boon or a bane? How safe are such sites for a user?

Photo courtesy: www.shalinjain.com

~ IT's My Life

Necessity is the mother of invention..

My theory exams just got over on 29th of May. So that officially pulls down the curtains to this whole show of verbal puking, they popularly call VTU exams. No more night-outs, no more slogging, no more rushing through textbooks, no more haggling for IE marks with my profis, and more importantly no more extra burden on my HDD (dimag) to memorize all those god-knows-what-they-mean-equations? Wow!! what a relief? Finally slogging ko milegi ek choti si break!!!

I am only left with my external project demo, which is probably scheduled (dates haven't been announced officially) in the first week of June. I am already feeling a sense of liberation run through my nervous system. A sense of having sailed through an unexpressible hardship. Kyu ki ek engineering student ka dard, ek engineering (student) hi samaj sakta hai? Hey don't charge me for flicking a popular bolly-woodian cliche ha...

Ab sedhe sedhe asli vichaar par aajate hai. I don't remember when was the first time I heard this adage? Saala apun ki yaadash to pehle se hi karab hai. Phir bhi toda dimaag pe zor lagke dekhenge to yaad aati hai. I think it was in my 6th grade that I first heard of this well known pro-verb. Ab aap log soch rahe honge ki aisi kya naubat aagyai, ki mujhe is subject pe likna pad raha hai? Hold on folks, have patience. I got tons of reasons why I made up my mind to jot something on this. kehne ko to hazaaro waje hai, lekin main yaha par kuchi cheezo ke baare main likh raha hu.

Almost all my friends outta here have got a DL (atleat for 2 wheelers). Whenever any of my friends offer me for a free test drive on their bike, I am forced to turn down the offer. The simple reason being... "Folks, I dunno how to ride a bike". This ain't a crime. Is it? Now don't look @ me as an ET ha. I did give it a try once on K's bike. The fact that I personally don't own a bike, does make it difficult for me to learn biking with full ease. The option of opting for a driving class hasn't been a tangible solution so for. For all those who ask me about my inability to drive a bike, I just have to say, "Necessity is the mother of invention". Ab aisi baat nahi hai ki mujhe bike chalana bil kul hi nahi aata... baat sirf itni hai ki, mujhe ab tak uski zaroorat mehsoos nahi hui hai!!!

On to a more serious issue. I have always been wondering what keeps people motivated and focussed. What is it that drives them incessantly to pursue that extra inch, which often decides the fate of the rat race they find themselves in. As I zero down on to the various sources of impetus, an obvious thing that emerges out is the fact that, they all desperately need to WIN!!! They can't afford to lose.. Jab hame koi cheez ati avashyak hojati hai, tabhi hum uske baare main soch te hain, aur usme dirchasbi dikana shuru karte hain. Necessity is the mother of invention...

When I see at things I do on a day-to-day basis be it blogging or studies, everything has got a purpose. If u find that I am pretty much of a novice, when it comes to cooking even simple dishes, it only shows that I might have never ever felt the need to cook! Saala bachelor ki zindagi bitane ke liye cooking sehna ek bahut hi important eligibilty hai yaaro! S is a pretty good cook, and he always taunts me when I confess that my cooking skills are equivalent to dancing skills of Ajay Devagan. "Saala mere ko cooking karna aati nahi hai yaar!!!". Iska matlab ye nahi ki main kabhi ise seekna nahi chahatata. It's just that I didn't feel it was necessary.

Chalo is post ko khatam ko karne se pehle, aap sab logo se is vichaar par vichaar karne ko request kartna hoon..

Just imagine urself being in the shoes (does he actually have one in that movie?) of TomHanks in cast away. If u haven't watched this movie yet, watch it and uske baad mere vichaaro par vichaar ki jiye. Imagine that ur lost on a god-knows-where island! Now would u let urself die, simply because u don't know how to swim or would you starve to death simply because you don't have anything purely vegetarian to eat? Many other constraints can be added to this. All I ask is, would you let yourself die on that island simply because you never were in to a situation like this before? Wouldn't you fight your way out of this somehow?

PS: All I intend to say is that... It's not always right to conclude about someone's potential of doing something, simply because he is presently unable to do it. It might be simply because, he/she might have not felt it necessary. Shayad isi liye kehte hain... Necessity is the mother of invention...

~IT's My Life

Jab slogging se ho pareshaan...

Hmmm... that is exactly what I have been doing off late, some ruthless slogging. Abh to aadat is hain... mujhko is (s)blogging se.. I just can't live without it.

Abh idar ka mahol ke bare main kya kehna yaaro? Exam ki tension sar chadke bol rahi hain. Sabhi bahi log, idar padai vadai main vyast hai, to apun saala kaise chup reh sakta hai. Lekin apun unse toda different hai. Jab bhi padhai (jo aaj kal bahut kum ho gayi hain..) karte karte, man main ek thakan is mehsoos hone lagti hain, to dimag ki batti jala ne ke liye, phat se ek post lik leta hoon... Boleto mast kick milti hai... Jab slogging se ho pareshan, tab blogging karo srimaan...

Our exams are gonna start off from 22nd of May. So all outta here are busy slogging. U can find every tom, dick and harry flocking to madhu xerox and uncle's angadi, to get the photo copies of the questions papers (previous years) and some newly introduced handwritten notes of various subjects. It has been the story almost every semester. MAP, NV and LU get these life saviour notes, from god-knows-where? But these notes to a large extent, have saved many a lives, in the past. Abh VTU student hoke tum pehle din se hi padhai kar rahe ho, to log tume shak ke nazar se dekhenge!! To zaahir hai, ki exam ke tension door karne ke liye, kuch to short cut hoga. That's when u resort to studying these notes. They are like fast food (not junkies in anyway, some are really good), though not good for health, but are very tasty to eat! Sabhi bhai log aakri waqt main hi padhai chalu karte hain, unko fast food bahut raas aati hain...

One more thing which is still an unsolved mystery is some accurate diagnosis of my pc. It's been over 2 weeks or so, since my computer is behaving weirdly. If I keep the power supply to my cpu on, it turns on automatically. I mean I don't need to manually power on my pc, it hapens automatically. (Now I'm not telling some sacchai ze door ka story ha). So every time I don't use my pc, I need to switch off my spike gaurd, so that my pc doesn't turn on automatically. Hmmm... yeh kaisi bimaari yaaro? Is problem ne to meri raato ki chain, or din ka neend uda diya hain. Agar aap main se kisi ko iska solution maalum hai, to kripya mujhe batane ka kasht uthaye pleaseeeee.

Listening to chal chale apne ghar... (Woh Lamhe).. Eh exam, jaldi khatam hoja yaar!!!

PS: Apne ko todha run rate badana ko mangta hai yaaro... Chalo slog over main jitna hosake, utna run batodlete hain. Slogging zindabad...back to padhai...

~IT's My Life

Sheesha ho ya Dil ho...

Note: This post is written in light of some distasteful developments that I have been witnessing in the recent past. I blame no one for the status quo. I jot this article purely to verbalize all my feelings, that I have never been able to share with even the closet of my friends here. The article in no way is an attempt to hurt anybody's feelings. I take no responsibility whatsoever if anyone who reads this article, feels its directed towards them. I once again re-iterate that its my personal opinion, and hence should not be generalized. I don't expect to make this a perfect post, presenting things very orderly... Bcoz, all i care is to convey what i felt and still feel... So bear with me for posting such an unorganized stuff...

Have u ever been through this feeling? Someone whom u presume to be a close friend.. after a slight misunderstanding gets in to this act of hurting u time and again. What begins as a small failure in effective communication can go on to become a big barrier b/w 2 people. Ek deewar si khadi ho jaati hi dono ke beech main... Then the whole charm in the friendship vanishes, and the bloody ego stuff sets in. What used to be a harmonious relationship, suddenly seems such a pain in the ass. It gets so tough for u to interact with the him/her with the same ease and comfort, as u used to do before. The person who seemed to be the one, u knew in and out, suddenly begins to mystify u. U are left dumbstruck. How did all this get so bloody fucked up?

A heart and a mirror, once broken can never be brought back to the original state... No matter how hard I am trying to battle this state of dilemma and guilt, I am not able to bring back that level of comfort, and that wavelength of communication with that person. How does one know about it? Are u feeling that the time u spend with that close friend, no more keeps u happier or comfortable? Is the whole act of interaction getting so smothering? If so, I can bet that the relationship has lost its charm. But what can be more painful, is the fact that u are expected to continue to interact with that person, as though nothing has really happened. I can't bloody figure out how one manages to do it. While deep within u, there lingers a feeling of guilt, that yells at u, "Hey, u don't like that person anymore, why don't u say that to him/her? Why try to put up a false feeling of comfort, while what u actually want is to get him/her out of ur sight?" I feel that when a relationship raises issues like these in ur mind, u r at the door step of a going - to- be- broken relationship. U will find urself making half-hearted attempts to consolidate it. All in vain... U r at the point of no return my boy!!!

The whole act gets so dirty, when u start tossing the ball in to each other's court, blaming the other for the status quo. Every word spoken, and every glance exchanged, is devoid of any sort of concern. Every word spoken in justification, simply aggravates the other party, making him/her either feel guilty or provoke him/her to pursue grudges. Many a times in life, we feel so happy that we get to know someone, and feel proud of earning their friendship. But all that illusion soon ends, when u are faced with hard facts. It hurts to the core when the so called 'sugar coated' interactions turn in to sarcastic ones. Both the parties start to throw some bloody shit on each other. U start to feel that u were bloody wrong about the person.

I have had enough of all this stuff. Enough of all this plastic smiles, and sugar coated convos!!! I have realized (and hopefully that person as well) that all the charm in our friendship is gone. What could have been settled down easily with a fruitful discussion, has simply been dragged, and blown out of proportion. I cannot put up a smiling face each time we meet, and I cannot betray u anymore. I can't show up as someone whole has godly tolerant levels, and someone who never gets hurt or angry. If that's what u call being hyper, so be it. I don't want to show any false concern to u, and neither do i except it from u. If u too feel the same, then why is it that we are still trying to do this patch work? If any interaction with me is so smothering, why don't u tell it on my face? I feel, it's high time that we sit down and cement this dilapidated relationship. Lets stop this whole 'try being nice' drama. They say, "The strength of a chain is determined by the strength of its weakest link." I feel that we failed to identify that weakest link!!! Lets end this whole cold war once and for all, in a graceful manner.

PS: They say, there are times when we leave a person not because we hate them, but because we feel that they can be happy if we let them go.. I feel, it's time we let go each other...

~IT's My Life